Epiphany
I'm a mystic. I bask in the presence of God. I used a Buddhist technique to realize my awareness of God. That's ironic since the Buddha shared no opinions on divinity. My wife, Carmelita, had given me a set of CDs by Mark Muesse on mindful meditation because I'd been feeling miserable. For a week or two, I spent half my time focused on breathing and the other half feeling itchy. It's easy to see why most people give up. I soldiered on, though, because I wanted to make sense of my misery. My big epiphany came a few years later. By that time I was spending maybe ten hours per week meditating and often felt a rush of well-being like a waterfall through my heart. Seated comfortably, I would move my focus of awareness through a great variety of patterns such as: breathing wiggling of toes interplay of light and shadow taste of chocolate raspberry candy scent of a rose sound of the home HVAC system Eventually my focus fell on prayer. The presence of God felt intimately fa...